Sometimes I wonder if photography is not what I’m meant to be doing in this life.
I seem to be remarkably unsuccessful at it lately, which is almost funny considering I see so many other photographers around me getting business when they use point and shoot cameras, DSLR cameras on auto, and offer over edited cheesy photos.
I’m not sure why people like that, but I’m not going to start doing it.
Advertising doesn’t seem to bring in any business either. I don’t have $400 to advertise in local publications for one month, our Craigslist is like a white trash meeting ground, and our town isn’t really set up with a nice downtown area where you could hang fliers or anything. Our city is basically a network of suburbs, it’s hard to explain. I’m stumped on how to find any customers for my business.
Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep even decided that I am not worthy of volunteering with them. I applied and they told me I didn’t have enough evidence of photographic skill in my portfolio. My portfolio was my website. They sent me this list of photos they needed to see in order to decide if I’m good enough, but I didn’t have time to accomplish everything they wanted in their 14 day window. It was random stuff, like professional photos done outside with artificial lighting.
Oh well. There are only three photographer volunteers in my area for the 50 mile radius. Maybe that’s all they need, though just our town has nearly 400,000 people so you’d think three photographers wouldn’t be many.
I guess what it boils down to is that I just give up. This isn’t fun, it’s actually just kind of depressing. I was going to delete my website, but Tyler said to leave it up at least until the fees to renew it come.
I wonder what else I can be besides a photographer.
A mom, of course, but sometimes that isn’t quite enough.