Why does my baby not sleep?
My quality of life would be so much better if only she would nap alone in bed for an hour every day then go to bed at a reasonable time. Imagine the possibilities! I could clean something up, read a chapter in a book, eat a bite of food. Breathe.
But she doesn’t nap. At all. Ever. She’s been done with naps most days since around 12 months old. She’s 15 months old now and definitely not napping unless she falls asleep in the car by accident.
And bed time? Oh bed time. Rosie can go to bed at 6:45 in the evening without any issue.
Not Ada. Ada won’t fall asleep until 10, or 11, or sometimes 12 or 1 in the morning. Ada wakes up in the middle of the night and stays awake for hours. Ada tosses and turns all night long. If I leave the bed she immediately wakes up 80% of the time.
There’s nothing that will make her sleep. She doesn’t sleep alone, I’ve tried. She doesn’t sleep with me. She does not need sleep to function.
I don’t really need much sleep to function either, actually her lack of sleep isn’t that bothersome to me most of the time. She probably inherited the ability to sleep 5 hours and be well rested from me.
The problem is my lack of a break. I just need fifteen minutes to myself, but I don’t get that. EVER. She never stops moving until she’s fitfully sleeping, and she’s never asleep during hours that I can just relax. She’s only asleep between maybe midnight and 6:30 in the morning when Rosie wakes us up. Rosie gets up happily with the sunrise, cheerful and bursting with energy.
I can’t take my eyes off of Ada for even one second. You saw how she chopped a hole in her finger while I was standing a foot away trying to brush my teeth. Nothing is safe.
Sometimes I just want to sit quietly, alone, in peace. (Not to mention fold laundry, do dishes, or declutter, or shower alone.)
I feel frazzled.
And no, I can’t afford to hire a babysitter. I doubt Tyler would let me anyway, why would a stay at home mom have a babysitter?
My family is way too busy to babysit them for free. And Tyler is never home and awake except for a few hours every afternoon during which he eats, uses the bathroom, and gets ready for work so he can’t watch them. It’s my responsibility, and it wouldn’t be any problem at all if Ada would go to bed at 8 pm and stay asleep alone for an hour.
Ada won’t even sit and watch TV for more than two minutes. I’ve tried that multiple times.
Right now Ada is digging in the kitchen trash can. Probably licking salmonella off of something. Great.
Five seconds of sitting down over.