In regards to the sweet little girl in the previous entry–Tyler says he’s not ready for international adoption yet. He wants to wait until we make a ton of money per year so it wouldn’t be a struggle to finance the adoption, then he says he’d love to do it. I don’t agree with that idea at all. If we waited until we were rich to do things then we’d be wasting years of our lives.
I’m pretty sure this is purely a struggle between a left brained person and a right brained person.
There isn’t much I can do about it, it’s not like I can force him to go along with it.
The weird thing is that I feel so strongly about it. Like, I can’t just accept it and move on. I have no idea why, it’s not as if I’m fixating on it and pouting about it on purpose. I just feel deeply sad…?
If it wasn’t meant to be, they why in the world do I feel so strongly about her? Just…strange. Unexplainable. Maybe I’ll never know the reason. Maybe something else unforeseen will happen. I’m praying for this feeling to go away if this isn’t going to work out, because it’s kind of depressing. (And totally out of the blue.)
I’m avoiding looking at her picture. Rosie keeps asking me about her.