We’re still alive.
I haven’t written anything because I’m having trouble finding the right words to say.
Sometimes it’s difficult to explain things accurately with snippets of photos and words. People are quick to form judgements, because as humans that’s what we do best–we judge everything from our own point of view in order to create the reality we believe to be true.
That age old dichotomy of reality vs. perception, you know?
There are things I can’t say because you wouldn’t understand. It’s impossible to understand until it’s your reality.
Suffice to say loving a traumatized child is very difficult. I have moments where I think to myself, I could just walk away from this. *We could pretend none of it has ever happened, try to go back to life before we knew of these children. *
But what kind of person would that make me? What life goals would I have?
Selfishly, I cannot simply walk away from something I am passionate about. Miraculously no one else in our household wants to walk away either.
So that’s where I’m at right now.