Anna, with a prayer.
Last week Tyler told me he had a dream that Nazar couldn’t come for hosting, so we hosted a girl named Annika instead.
Tyler rarely has dreams. He is always jealous that I have vivid dreams because he says he never dreams, or never remembers it. It was weird for him to even mention having a dream.
But surely, I thought, Nazar would still be able to come. It must have been just a weird dream Tyler had. I’ve been praying and praying that it would be clear if we should host a child this winter, and that it would all work out perfectly.
Fast forward to Tuesday. We found out Nazar can’t come for hosting because the region’s education director only wants to allow a few kids from his region to come. No reason, he just doesn’t want them to come. I bet he doesn’t want to deal with the paperwork.
Nazar wasn’t one of the few children chosen.
Why Ukraine, WHY?
Tyler was upset and said he was tired of this happening and he just didn’t want to host any kids for winter. He said we could just try again in the summer. We looked at the photo listing of remaining kids and he said there were none he liked, except for one little girl.
We clicked on her profile and her name was Anna.
Frighteningly close to Annika from his dream! He was a little startled.
Then we clicked on every other girl on the photo listing. No others were named Anna or Annika, or even anything remotely similar.
Freak out, he said.
He was still afraid to host her, so I just dropped the subject. We agreed to wait a few days before refunding the money from donations. I was so sad.
Today he said that Anna was still on his mind.
After a bit of anxious discussion we will decided we will host her. (Hopefully.)
You guys she is so gorgeous! I love her perfect features and her blue eyes. She caught my eye the first time I looked at the photo listing but we wanted to host a boy so we didn’t pick her. (Maybe other plans are in motion…? I should know by now that I am in control of literally nothing.)
She’s 10 years old and she likes math and animals. She said she likes wintertime because she can lay in bed and read books–she loves fantasy books and fairy tales with happy endings, and Harry Potter. She said she loves throwing snowballs in winter.
She was described by her director as sensitive and reserved, polite, humble, and tidy. She is also a dedicated student and does well in school.
I can’t help but wonder if maybe she will be The One we are meant to adopt.
Who knows, who knows…certainly not me, I’ll tell you that much. Learned that lesson the hard way with Karina, Tanya, and Nazar.
But we can’t just forget about them–the orphans. They are still there, hundreds of thousands of these beautiful children with no parents, no future. In six years Anna will be kicked out of her orphanage and she will either be a sex slave, commit suicide, or get into a trade school to do menial labor. 60% of girls become sex slaves. 10-20% commit suicide. The odds are not in her favor in Ukraine.
Here’s my crisis. (Isn’t there always some kind of crisis?) Today I found out that the money for winter hosting is due on October 31st.
Seriously! October 31st.
I couldn’t believe it. That’s not very far away at all. I was sure it would be due in mid November, not in October.
First I cried. Then I vacuumed the entire house, because dang it if I can’t control this I can at least control the dirt on my floors.
We have $1,205. (Money that was contributed for Nazar just moved over to Anna, hopefully that’s ok with the six of you!)
We still need $1,495.
I have absolutely NO IDEA where that money will come from. I am filled with anxiety, but I’m trying to have faith that if we’re meant to host Anna then the money will materialize.
I remember how for Karina (which ended up actually being for Tanya) we got all of the money in one week–that was twice what we need now.
Any extra photography work I can scrounge up goes 100% towards this. That’s where the bulk of the $1,205 came from. But October 31st is not much time to earn more money that way.
Part of me just wants to say no, forget about this, run away. Do something else with my time. But I can’t, and Tyler can’t either. We’re in this up to our necks now and once you fall in love with orphans there is just no turning back. There is no delete key, and no easy button either.
Tanya’s smiling face will be tattooed to the back of my eyelids until the day I die. I pray for her and think about her a million times a day, that she is well and safe and not sad, and that the family she found in America will be able to successfully adopt her. I’m so thankful that she didn’t go to the mental institution, and thankful that with her new glasses she is at school reading the blackboard. And also thankful that so many of you helped with that, forever thankful.
For Anna–I don’t know if people will be able to afford to donate as much, or be willing since we just went through this same thing when I was fundraising during the summer.
I wish I had $1,495 because I would certainly spend it on this. Unfortunately I have no savings account. Well I did meagerly, but now I have an orphan named Anna whose picture on a photo listing is marked as on hold.
We’ve already done the background checks, child abuse checks, and the home study.
Now we just need $1,495, a wish, and a prayer. Well, make that lots of prayers.
I’m going to throw the chip-in back out there to the internets just in case. Just in case…
If you know of anyone who wants to contribute to a tax deductible charity it can be done through the non-profit and you will get a receipt, just put Amos Family on the donation.
That info is here:
I posted it on my Facebook photography page for easy sharing too.
And while I’m posting links, here’s The Entire Story of Tanya if you are just tuning in.
You have to admit this is a little exciting and more than a little crazy. Karina, Tanya, Nazar, and now Anna…where is this all leading? I love being able to look back in hindsight to see how everything fell into place, even when in the moment everything at times seemed as if it was all falling apart.