half heard in the stillness-- between two waves of the sea.

Puppy Love. 0

Best Friends Forever.

Here are a few pictures from my phone from recently: Sunny day mud pie! Toes in the mud. Kept taking off his boots and socks until I gave up. The boy feels an unavoidable urge to reach all of the electronics and push all of their buttons, no matter what. His sisters did this. They also did this to him. The first snow of the winter on Saturday morning, which has already melted. This is the view from my kitchen window....

Sweet Buddy. 0

Tired.

Fitbit tells me the most ridiculous things about my life. I walk up to eight miles a day in my own house. Go up and down twelve flights of stairs, again in my house. The best thing Fitbit tells me is about my sleep. It’s like pure justification for feeling tired and bleary. It shows I have a lot of awake times at night. Not just a lot but a whole lot of awake times. For example on Friday night I was laying in bed...

Big Fat Snow Flakes Falling. 0

Snowy.

This morning someone rang our doorbell at 7 a.m., when it was still dark out. Tyler stumbled out of bed because the dogs started barking and the baby started crying. He went downstairs and opened the door only to find someone wanting to shovel the snow on our sidewalk for booze money. In the dark. On Saturday morning. Are you kidding? By then the baby was awake. The dogs wanted to go out. The sun wasn’t even up yet. I don’t...

My sweet goofball. 0

A brief respite from the cold.

We’ve been enjoying the warmer weather lately. For the past two days it’s been in the mid 50’s with sun! I am so ready for spring. We’ve had no snow this winter, just lots and lots of ugly gray days with freezing temps and just-above-freezing rain. Yuck. The kids have played outside for hours during the past couple of days. Sun. SUN! And Ada with her short hairs!! Excuse his crusty nose. He’s had his first cold ever and I practically...

Snip snip! 0

The First Haircut.

That’s right, Henry got his first hair cut. I put it off for as long as I could, but he was starting to look like a homeless person without access to regular hygiene. We weren’t sure how he would do sitting still for someone to trim his hair, so we wanted to go to a kiddie place. Unfortunately the only one was an hour away! Luckily it’s right by my parents’ house, so we stopped in to get Henry’s hair cut...

I like stealing memes from the internet. 0

Dairy is the culprit.

After about a week of strictly dairy free I cheated. My sister’s birthday cake on Sunday night had icing made with milk. I also ate a few cookies made with milk that Tyler brought home, and some artificially flavored popcorn that had whey at the bottom of the ingredient list. Yeah, fail. Shush. I felt fine on Monday morning. Then Monday night I had cramps all night long and a horrible back ache. My nose wouldn’t stop running, which could be...

Elimination Communication Champion 2

Henry at 17 Months Old.

Tomorrow I have the follow up appointment with internist (doctor) for my giardia. I’ve been feeling great the last couple of days, but this morning I woke up with that ominous burning crampy feeling in my lower bowel. It’s been exactly a week since I last had an episode of misery. Are you kidding me?? So far nothing bad has happened yet. I just don’t feel that great. Maybe it’s a coincidence? :( Anyway, we’ll see what the doctor thinks tomorrow....

Mr. Mess 0

The Invitation.

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing. It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love for your dream for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon… I want to know if you have touched the centre of...

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Jinx!

Alright, well I jinxed myself writing that last time, just as I was afraid would happen. I had a horrible 24 hours of mind blowing cramps and tons of poop. Dammit. I was a sobbing mess because I thought for sure I was better. How could that happen again? The only good part of it (TMI, but can’t be helped!) was that none of my poop had that gross sticky texture that I had with giardia. That made me think it was maybe,...

Aaaaah! 0

Freedom!

I am afraid to say this, but I think I’m better. My intestines still feel sore and kind of not right, but my poop is normal. NORMAL. I’m still beyond terrified that it won’t last, that this a fluke and not a cure, or that it will come back. Could I really be free of a billion of my closest microscopic friends after all this time? Could I really have a future of emergency-poop-free life awaiting me now? I can scarcely...