half heard in the stillness-- between two waves of the sea.

Crumbled Tooth. 0

Crumbled Tooth.

I spent last night awake with Igor comforting him because he had a toothache. I wish we had taken him to the dentist. We just didn’t have time with the holidays and his stay being so short. I looked in his mouth last night and he has a black crumbling molar. He had a low grade fever and he was in a lot of pain. I feel so bad for him! We watched Russian cartoons and eventually I convinced him to...

Hard. 0

Hard.

We’re down to the last few days of Igor’s visit. This is the hardest part. He pushes us away by acting rude on purpose. It’s difficult not to take it personally, but since this is the third time we’ve hosted I’ve gained some wisdom. It’s just his way to make it easier for him to say goodbye. Sad, but true. He alternates pushing us away with being extra clingy. Earlier tonight he was laying in my arms stroking my cheek whispering,...

As 2013 Ends… 0

As 2013 Ends…

2013 is almost over. This year has brought about big changes. New baby! New home! This time last year we didn’t know if Henry was a boy or a girl. We had just met Igor. We had no idea we’d actually be able to move. I had no idea that I would be living on the perfect piece of land. What will next year bring? I have no idea. Hopefully good things. With Igor, well….we’re all in. We want to adopt...

Heart. 1

Heart.

I think re-hosting Igor a second time has really boosted his self esteem. It’s only been a couple of days but I can tell! He tried to tell Tyler in broken 10 year old boy English how happy he was that we chose him again. He said to Tyler, “Is nice America. Dis four time! My four time America! First….eh? shrug  Second you! Third Sarah. Fourth you me again! Yes! Is nice! I lave you Daddy!” He knows that we purposefully picked...

Alas! 0

Alas!

Tyler and Igor at the airport: Igor loved the Superman sweatshirt. He didn’t take it off until he got in bed, and I think he would have slept in it if it wasn’t (weirdly) 65 degrees outside and warm upstairs in the loft of our cabin. Group shot upon arrival at home! (Minus me…) (Why does this one have weird iPhone distortion? Boo!) Igor and Rosie were so excited to see each other. As soon as the car stopped Igor flung the door...

Goat Milking & Pictures from the beginning of December. 1

Goat Milking & Pictures from the beginning of December.

I’m goat sitting for my friend while her family is on vacation. She lives about 20 minutes away from me, which means out here she’s sort of my neighbor. It takes 15 minutes just to get up out of the area where I live to go anywhere. She has 16 goats. I’m milking one goat twice daily, and another goat is due to give birth any second! Her udder filled with milk a few days ago, which is a sign labor...

Refrigerator-less. 0

Refrigerator-less.

Yesterday (Wednesday) morning when I woke up I realized the refrigerator light wasn’t on. It wasn’t running either. You know how you get used to the hum of things, like appliances. When they are silent then it is suddenly Very Quiet. Some things in the freezer had already begun to defrost a bit, they were getting a coat of white frost on the outsides of the packages. This makes me think it must have died during the night early on. I...

Henry’s Head. 1

Henry’s Head.

Henry turned 16 weeks old on Monday. That’s four months. The doctor told me to wait until his four month well baby visit to reassess his head shape for a neurosurgeon referral. I’ve been so worried about his head. I tried to schedule his well baby check up for sooner, but they didn’t have any openings. Instead I made a sick visit appointment to discuss it with the pediatrician. I’ve known for months now that his head isn’t right. I stare...

Nope, Nope, Nope. 0

Nope, Nope, Nope.

The renters are moving into the house we own in town this weekend. In some ways it’s a relief to have that over and done with, and funny to think of someone else living in our home! I would never want to move back there, ever, so I’m not sad in the least. I wish we could have sold it. Other houses in the area were selling for $97,000. We bought our house for $112,000 in 2007 and in 2009 it...

PS: My Life is Ridiculous. 0

PS: My Life is Ridiculous.

Whew. Well first off let me assure you that I am writing to you from a cabin complete with a running refrigerator. How that refrigerator arrived here is another story. This morning, as I was trying to feed my children breakfast without the use of any refrigerated foods, the landlady and I had a bit of words during which I informed her that they absolutely could not rent out this cabin to anyone else without making major repairs, and that we...