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Henry’s Head. 1

Henry’s Head.

Henry turned 16 weeks old on Monday. That’s four months. The doctor told me to wait until his four month well baby visit to reassess his head shape for a neurosurgeon referral. I’ve been so worried about his head. I tried to schedule his well baby check up for sooner, but they didn’t have any openings. Instead I made a sick visit appointment to discuss it with the pediatrician. I’ve known for months now that his head isn’t right. I stare...

Nope, Nope, Nope. 0

Nope, Nope, Nope.

The renters are moving into the house we own in town this weekend. In some ways it’s a relief to have that over and done with, and funny to think of someone else living in our home! I would never want to move back there, ever, so I’m not sad in the least. I wish we could have sold it. Other houses in the area were selling for $97,000. We bought our house for $112,000 in 2007 and in 2009 it...

PS: My Life is Ridiculous. 0

PS: My Life is Ridiculous.

Whew. Well first off let me assure you that I am writing to you from a cabin complete with a running refrigerator. How that refrigerator arrived here is another story. This morning, as I was trying to feed my children breakfast without the use of any refrigerated foods, the landlady and I had a bit of words during which I informed her that they absolutely could not rent out this cabin to anyone else without making major repairs, and that we...

Germs, Anxiety, Abandoning The Cabin. 0

Germs, Anxiety, Abandoning The Cabin.

I am struggling with anxiety once again.   This time I’m finally going to try medication. I’m not sure what yet. Before they gave me a prescription for Zoloft, but I never picked it up from the pharmacy. Chickened out! I’m scared of the side effects. I have a doctor’s appointment on Thursday evening.   It’s just too much–being alone with the kids all the time and no break. I have this constant feeling of stress and impending doom. Anxious. I...

Ada’s First Hair Cut, The End of October, & Other Pictures. 0

Ada’s First Hair Cut, The End of October, & Other Pictures.

Here are some pictures from recently. I can’t remember which ones I’ve posted before. I think this was the week before Halloween: Kitten is obsessed with the faucet in the bathroom. Henry dressed in cute clothes. I feel like he’s so much bigger than this now, even though it was just a few weeks ago! And you can see his torticollis here. His head was stuck in that position. Thank goodness that’s fixed mostly. This was the Saturday morning before Halloween....

Halloween Photos. 0

Halloween Photos.

We had to carve our pumpkin without Tyler this year since he was at work. We didn’t have time to do it beforehand, and we were running out of days before Halloween! I decided to try using the drill. It went…ok. Rosie designed the pumpkin and I carved it. This is when the drill ran out of batteries before we did the last whiskers. All lit up! Our town changed trick or treating to the 1st of November since we had...

Big News! 0

Big News!

WASHINGTON—The U.S. economy is experiencing “a remarkably positive set of economic circumstances,” Federal Reserve Chairman Jerome Powell said Wednesday, suggesting that he sees little risk the current economic expansion will be knocked off course. “There’s no reason to think this cycle can’t continue for quite some time, effectively indefinitely,” Mr. Powell said in a moderated discussion with PBS News Hour’s Judy Woodruff, at the Atlantic Festival in Washington. They talked about how there’s a general perception that retail investors are susceptible...

Bring Igor Back? 0

Bring Igor Back?

My poor sweet Igor. This is just all wrong. The other family couldn’t adopt him because relatives apparently showed up. We thought the relatives were going to adopt him, but it seems they aren’t. Igor was moved to another orphanage. He has to be so heartbroken and confused. This summer he told the American family wanting to adopt him that he had a mom and he had her phone number with him written down on a piece of paper. The American...

10 Weeks of Chub. 0

10 Weeks of Chub.

Henry is ten weeks old now. He’s growing up so quickly! This week he’s really started following things with his eyes. He looks around towards sounds and voices, he follows me out of the room with his eyes.  He’s really starting to shed that whole newborn blob thing and come into his own as a chunky baby. Henry also discovered his hands this week. He was staring at his fist cross eyed and then tasting it some last week.  This week...

Sloping Floors and Other Woes. 0

Sloping Floors and Other Woes.

My concerns about the welfare of this cabin are increasing exponentially. I love this place. LOVE IT. More than words can say. It’s not unlivable, though not in idea condition either. We’re comfortable right now. However, the sloping floors are freaking me out. In the past week for some reason the bathroom floor has gained some major slope-age from the toilet area downward toward the corner of the bathtub. It’s very obvious and not just a slight dip. So much that...