half heard in the stillness-- between two waves of the sea.

In a flash– 9

In a flash–

Her fate seizes her and brings her down. She is heavy with it. It wrings her. The great weight is heaved out of her. It eases. She moves into what she has become, sure in her fate now as a fish free in the current. She turns to the calf who has broken out of the womb’s water and its veil. He breathes. She licks his wet hair. He gathers his legs under him and rises. He stands, and his legs...

The Peace of the Wild Things. 6

The Peace of the Wild Things.

40 weeks, 1 day. I feel like we’re in limbo just waiting for him to show up at some unknown hour. Other than the anticipation of his arrival, I’m actually feeling much better than I have this entire pregnancy.  I still feel nauseated, but I have energy!  I feel happy.  Not like a lethargic, miserable lump.  Well at least not most of the time. I still have my moments. Tonight I went for a hike through the hills behind the cabin...

Rosie’s Birthday! 0

Rosie’s Birthday!

I had my midwife appointment today.  Baby H is all happy and snug down in there. Rosie and Ada were so active in the womb–both of them kicked, flip flopped around, jabbed me, poked me, and even did something that felt like clawing me to pieces.  Baby H doesn’t do any of that.  He just wiggles and pokes his butt up. I imagine he thinks my womb is his man cave.  I’m certain he’s in there chilling out.  He stretches and...

39 weeks, 5 days: We have a winner. 0

39 weeks, 5 days: We have a winner.

Baby H wins the award of baby who has stayed inside the longest! Now that he’s won maybe he will come out.  ;) My due date is on Thursday.  I see no signs that he’s planning on coming out before then.  He seems quite content to chill out in the belly. With both Rosie and Ada I had tons more prodromal labor and I was walking around completely miserable, dilated, and ready to pop the baby out any second from 38...

Lumpy Eyes. 0

Lumpy Eyes.

I was 39 weeks yesterday!  (My ticker is off by a day.) Rosie was born by now.  Ada still had three days to go.  I wonder what Baby H will choose… This morning I woke up feeling not pregnant at all.  Like full of energy, not even sick.  Weird?  I think I remember this happening right before Rosie was born also.  With Ada I never felt that horrible, so it wasn’t as big of a deal. Today was apparently nesting day....

Rosie’s Birthday & Unrelated Photos. 0

Rosie’s Birthday & Unrelated Photos.

Today (the 19th) is Rosie’s birthday.  I can’t believe she’s 7!  I’ll make her own entry about her birthday.  We’re having family over for a small party on Saturday night.  We’re hoping to roast hot dogs over the fire if it’s not raining.  Since we live out here we have a big fire circle lined with field stone and we can have campfires every night.  So much fun to roast your dinner on sticks or stick foil packets of seasoned veggies...

Close Call. 0

Close Call.

I’m in love with the bunnies.  I did not expect to like them this much.  Someone help me! They’re just so…I don’t know what the word for it is.  They don’t snuggle, but they hop around and are very playful.  They’re incredibly adorable and full of personality. Best of all they’re actually bonding with us, unlike a hamster or some other small furry pet.  They actually recognize us and are happy to see us.   Tonight Ada apparently opened the crate...

More of the Bunnies! 0

More of the Bunnies!

This afternoon the girls and I were upstairs in the playroom sitting on that wooden window bench when a storm started to blow up over the ridge. I’ve been trying to convince Rosie that most storms are harmless.  She has a tad bit of my anxiety.  Not specifically over storms, but over anything.  :( As I was point out the cool lightening we could see in the clouds and telling her it was just a boring thunderstorm with nothing to panic...

The Bunnies! 0

The Bunnies!

It just took almost 45 minutes for the text box to load on this page. I swear there is some conspiracy going on out here.  No TV channels come in except for a local Fox station.  Cell phones (of all carriers) get no reception or poor and spotty reception that randomly disappears for long periods of time.  3G/4G/LTE doesn’t work on any carrier except AT&T and it’s unreliable, spotty, and very slow.  Even the home phone line we broke down and...