Tagged: birth

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Ten.

One whole decade. That’s how old my baby is now. That’s how long I’ve been a mother. I was 19 and pregnant. I wish I could go back and tell the 19 year old me that it will all be ok in the end. The journey to “ok” definitely wasn’t an easy one, but we’re here now, safe and sound. Well, at least as “ok” as anyone ever is, I suppose. ;) I spent her entire pregnancy in a state of...

The Story of How Henry Arrived. 3

The Story of How Henry Arrived.

People keep asking me about the story of Henry’s birth. All I can tell you is that it was nothing like Ada’s birth. Henry was like a freight train barreling through my body on his way to entering the world. It hurt.  A lot.  There was so much sheer power and force.  It was unreal. I’m not sure I’ve processed the whole experience just yet. Henry was four or five days overdue, depending on which due date you chose to go...

In a flash– 9

In a flash–

Her fate seizes her and brings her down. She is heavy with it. It wrings her. The great weight is heaved out of her. It eases. She moves into what she has become, sure in her fate now as a fish free in the current. She turns to the calf who has broken out of the womb’s water and its veil. He breathes. She licks his wet hair. He gathers his legs under him and rises. He stands, and his legs...

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Eloise.

This afternoon I attended the birth of my friend’s first daughter.  (She has four little boys under age 8!) She had the baby at home, and it was a perfect birth.  All four boys were there.  Their excitement was priceless, I must share!   She weighs 8 pounds, 3 ounces.  She’s 19.5 inches long. Hello, Baby Fever.        

Welcoming Baby Ada. 0

Welcoming Baby Ada.

The first part to this, along with her birth video, is in the previous entry. For those who asked, Ada is pronounced like the letter A at the beginning. A-duh. Or Aid-ah, if you’d rather… Everything is going so smoothly this time, in comparison to the horrible time I had after Rosie’s birth. Baby Ada knows how to nurse so well! She latched on shortly after birth and didn’t stop nursing voluntarily for almost the entire first 24 hours. My milk...

Baby Ada’s Birth Day. 12

Baby Ada’s Birth Day.

I feel as if I am completely in awe. Did any of this actually happen? It’s all so unbelievable, the entire pregnancy I’ve felt a since of disbelief. After my miscarriage I was afraid to trust that I could have a real live baby. I didn’t want my heart broken again. Even after three healthy ultrasounds I still couldn’t wrap my mind around the image of a healthy baby. Once you realize that it can all change in an instant, it’s...

I think I poked the baby in the head. 5

I think I poked the baby in the head.

I’m having a mini-crisis. I think…my baby might be…REAL. As in, there is a real live baby in there. I can feel her moving all the time, but that’s so abstract. I still can’t convince myself she’s going to be a real child, like Rosie. Except today I think I might have poked her head. Like, I have a real baby who has a real bowling ball of a head jammed into my crotch. And I touched her head. In my...

Finally, to take a step without feet. 0

Finally, to take a step without feet.

“This is love: to fly toward a secret sky, to cause a hundred veils to fall each moment. First to let go of life. Finally, to take a step without feet.” -Rumi I keep re-reading this quote, over and over. This quote perfectly describes what the conception of this baby and this pregnancy is for me. It came out of so much sadness and heartbreak, after being pregnant for 12 weeks then suddenly no longer pregnant. After trying desperately to fill...